Posts Tagged ‘strength’

A letter to myself

Lose sight of perfection, and get lost in the journey. Be okay with falling, failing. Be okay with scars. Be okay with never being quite good enough. Be okay if the finish line moves with every step you take. As you improve so do the expectations placed on you. As you go high, anticipate harder falls. But when you fall, don’t stay down. Don’t stay defeated.

 

Don’t let sadness engulf you or misery define you. When people criticize you take whatever you can from it, but do not internalize it. Hear it, listen to it, learn from it, and let it go.

 

Don’t let the sadness of a previous day follow you for the rest of the week. Don’t hide yourself from hurt. Allow it to hit you like a wave, then wash it away. Wake up every day and try your best. Brush your teeth, take a shower, and be grateful for another day.

 

Let perspective find you, let joy lift you up. Find a shoulder to cry on, and if none appear, tell your troubles to Jesus. He has the kindest ear, the softest heart, the biggest smile, and a light that brings cheer.

 

You are okay, if not, you will be. The weight you carry will grow lighter as you become stronger. Believe in yourself the way you believe in others. Have faith, love, and hope. Be kind, and don’t forget to smile.

 

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I won’t ask who you voted for…

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Politics can be extremely divisive, and this space is not really one that seeks to be political.

However, I do think there are positive lessons that one can learn from this election regardless of who one voted for. In the case of Hillary Clinton, I would say that I respect her even more after this election than I did beforehand. It is not an easy task to concede something one has wanted for so long and fought so hard and so publicly for.

Speaking at a Children’s Defense Fund benefit on November 16th, one week after the election Hillary was quoted as saying “I will admit coming here tonight wasn’t the easiest thing for me..” “There have been a few times this past week where all I wanted to do is curl up with a good book or our dogs and never leave our house again..”

 

I can definitely relate to that. I haven’t yet faced a defeat as public and brutal as hers, but even the small challenges life throws my way sometimes makes me want to curl up in bed, throw my phone away, eat my feelings, cry my eyes out and give up… Hillary though didn’t end her statements there. She went on to say “‘Service is the rent we pay for living..'” “Well, you don’t get to stop paying rent just because things don’t go your way.”

 

How true is that? Though sometimes we feel down or discouraged, should we simply throw a pity party, dragging all our friends and family into whatever despair we are currently in? Tempting, but no. We should yes clean our wounds, bandage them up, but sometimes we gotta keep fighting even while old wounds are still healing. If we don’t we risk the hurt, pain, and disappointments in our past taking something far worse from us– our futures.

 

 

In terms of the lessons we can learn from Donald Trump… .. .. I would say that I have learned from him that sometimes having a dogged stubborn resilience–that sometimes borders on delusional–can be just want you need to propel yourself to the next level. Aside from what one may think about him politically… he is a successful businessman for a reason. Sometimes you need to believe in yourself more than anyone else in the room does. And if you can elevate your own worth and believe in yourself enough… pretty soon you might convince others too as well.

 

That’s my two cents folks, but remember…

 

“We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope.”
– Martin Luther King

Overcoming obstacles

Sometimes it is easy to wallow in self pity. When I get in that frame of mind I tend to dwell in it for quite a bit. I wake up not so ready to face the day and with a feeling of two large hands pressing down on my chest. Then there is also the feeling of walking under a perpetual cloud. Today was one of those days, where I kinda just planned on barely making it through the day. I got to work and after some semi-challenging news I started feeling like the cloud above me was going to burst. I picked up my phone hoping to distract myself, but as usual there is never really anyone to talk to when you really need them, so I ended up going online and reading an article about a woman who has every reason to wallow in self pity but doesn’t.

She literally goes around giving TEDx talks exuding positivity and strength; when she can’t sit down and has a to use an external bag as a stomach. She’s extremely skinny because though she eats 8,000 calories a day she only retains 20% of it. Which most of us would think great right? But not when the rest drips out of what should be her stomach. I thought wow. If I was going through that I would be such a mess. I mean imagine relationships, the limits in getting closer to people, the constant rejection and explanations she has to give. Never really being able to be ‘normal.’  And the bitterness that doctors actually made everything worse. But she literally just pushes past all that and lives a meaningful life. Traveling, meeting people, sharing her story- her insecurities, and exuding strength and courage.

I know sometimes looking at how worse off others are can be a means of disregarding our very real problems and suggesting that what we are going through isn’t valid. But that’s not what I am suggesting you, or I for that matter do. I feel like stories like this should give us strength to tackle whatever obstacle we are facing, and encouragement that we are not alone in our struggles. There is no one out there living a ‘normal’ life. We all have our own versions of normal. But we don’t have to be overwhelmed by it, or just accept it, we can thrive through it.

Well I am off to finish facing my own obstacles. I wish you the best in tackling yours!

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Time to wake up

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I woke up with my hands fisted.
 
My eyes were slits and my heart was beating,
 
but not lifted.
 

    Bump, bump, bump.


 
Slow, steady,
 
beating like it was caged and had given up hope of escape.
 
 
Laying quiet like a mute
 
my mind screamed(!)
 

    while my lips barely moved.

 
 
Breathing in I took just a little air,
 
I was conserving the rest,
 

    my attempt at being fair.

 
 
The alarm had given up with it’s ringing
 
knowing I slept on like one not living.
 
 

    I braced myself and shifted,

 
feet hit the ground,
 
but it was my mind that was sprinting.
 
 

    Shower was on water spilling.

 
Cleansed a lot
 
but never enough.
 
 
Alas, my time was up. 
 
Time to wake up.

Let God fight for you -Morning Devotion

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David chose the stone.

David walked on the battlefield.

David aimed the sling.

David slung the stone. But who killed Goliath?

According to David… God did.  (1 Samuel 17:46-47).

What battles or struggles are you facing? Your own strength will surely fail. Trust God to work for you today. Encourage yourself! God is with you. He will fight for you.

Where is God

This year I have committed to read through the Bible chronologically. Today’s passage comes from Job 17:

“My spirit is crushed, and I am near death. The grave is ready to receive me. I am surrounded by mockers. I watch how bitterly they taunt me. My eyes are dim with weeping, and I am but a shadow of my former self. My days are over. My hopes have disappeared. My heart’s desires are broken. I might go to the grave and make my bed in darkness. And I might call the grave my father, and the worm my mother and my sister. But where then is my hope? Can anyone find it? No, my hope will go down with me to the grave.”

We all know what it is like to feel hopeless. In the midst of our circumstance, sometimes we see no way out. We have no help. We have no joy. We question God’s presence in our lives. We forget how He has led us in the past.

But whenever I am reading Job and find myself questioning God: I quickly skip to the end of the story. I skip to God’s answer.

Job 38:

“Then the Lord answered Job from the whirlwind: “Who is this that questions my wisdom with such ignorant words? Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell me, if you know so much. Have you ever commanded the morning to appear and caused the dawn to rise in the east? Have you made daylight spread to the ends of the earth, to bring an end to the night’s wickedness?”

Our God is a great God. We may not understand our circumstance. But its not ours to question God. Instead we trust His ways, which are above our own.

“Sometimes we ask God to fix things, that He is not going to fix. Change things that He is not going to change. We ask Him to move things that He is not going to move. He may not change your circumstances, but He will give the grace to bear it. He may not move your problem, but He will give you the grace to stand it. God may not take you out of the fire, but He will be a thermostat in the furnace, so that the flames of trials and despair will not scorch you, but refine you into pure gold. When there is no way left for you to try, when all your plans have failed, and you see no way of relief, God says: Here I am. My strength is made perfect in your weakness.”

God is still God in the middle of your trial. He will never leave you or forsake you.

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